Here I Stand

Here I sit in this new house. A house with high vaulted ceilings, mahogany wood floors, and a beautiful staircase, yet, I sit here in my dream, hurting, broken, and off course. How can I have everything I've been working for under my feet, yet still feel battered? Yes the day I moved into this new house, my mother called me a "dumb bitch" and a few months before that the father of my child decided that child support was asking to damn much, but I am supposed to be pass my past, right? I am supposed to be "the bigger person that swallows my scars and rejects my pain," right? I am supposed to be "the strong one?"

So why then do I sit here, with these bleeding floors underneath my feet, feeling like something is breaking…

I have been an amazing mother to my daughter. I have been the best friend to the cold-hearted. I have given love, traveled the world, smiled, laughed, danced...pretended... Maybe these cold floors are the first reminder I have had that my scars are not all healed. Maybe this silence awakens a reality that screams you are not okay. Maybe for the first time I have the space to feel and what I am feeling for the first time, in forever, is that this shit is not okay.

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Dr. Sheika Square is an author, business strategist, life coach, prolific speaker and executive consultant with more than 13 years’ experience. Affectionately known for her straight-up, no-fluff coaching approach, Dr. Square gives ambitious entrepreneurs the insight and guidance they need to shift from an aspiring entrepreneur or side hustler to a confident and profitable CEO.

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